The Journey

Awakening the sleeper within!

This site is for when life reaches the point where it just seems to be one long dark tunnel! Your coping has reached that point where you  ask… ‘What is going on? I can’t do this any more! Is there an end to all this?’

It’s referred to as ‘The dark night of the soul’. A journey that tests who we REALLY are! And this is the place where I hope I can show you something that will give your ‘life’ some sense, and begin something that will start to bring some light and smiles back into who you are!

After a long time, sometimes many years, enduring some of life’s most incredible tragedy’s, we reach a point where we ask ourselves ‘ What is the point? ‘. We are tired, emotionally and physically, to the point where doing day to day things become a series of painful chores, a list of never ending, sometimes repetitive, actions that are draining you of your emotional resources.

There has to be a better way! Living this way can’t be what it is all about. Surely living on this big blue planet must have something going for it. What am I missing? Did I leave the manual of life somewhere when I left the hospital. Or actually, did my parents forget to teach me something? Amongst their crazy ride through life? There has to be more to this or I want a refund!

Well, actually, there is a lot more here than we know. Much, much more! It is so subtle that it escapes our notice most of the time, with the odd appearance just to let us know that there is something there after all. We are mostly so bogged down in life that it escapes detection, so we ‘endure’. Then when we least expect it, when the world is on our backs, a little message, an understanding just on the peripheral of our thoughts, taps us on the shoulder to say ‘let me in’, to which we may baulk at or sit and think a while we digest this bit that came from who knows where.

These little things happen on and off in our lives and are always put down to ‘isn’t that amazing’, and then get back to the chores. Or ‘that was a fluke, couldn’t happen again in a million years’. You know the things I’m talking about, those not quite understood but ‘fobbed off’ things that haven’t got a name so relegated to the ‘too hard basket’.

And not all of them are so little. Some of these ‘things’ can even be so profound as to literally ‘knock your socks off’. Leave you in such a profoundly shocked way, that for hours, days or even years later, that you ‘KNOW’ that you have touched something that is beyond describing, (even if you wanted to), and changes who and what you are forever. Removing all of that doubt, all of those unnamed bits that may have been a part of you up to that point. The changes that it will bring to you are amazing, the most profound is usually your core values that make up who, (you thought), you actually were up to that point. Things that mattered, no longer will. Things that you thought didn’t matter, suddenly will. The change is incredible, beautiful, and more than a little shaky as you ‘tune in’ to the new you.

Now a lot of us don’t get the profound ‘event’ that rocks your socks off! We are left to do it the hard way… by belief in ourselves! And don’t think that that is any the less, for in fact it creates a more loving, beautiful person all the more for what they have ‘endured’.

Anything that we have to work at, has an attachment to it. When we’ve worked, slaved and put so much of ourselves into something, the final product is a part of us, a part of ourselves that ‘creates’ that end product and so we associate ourselves with it quite strongly. If we get something ‘for nothing’ or don’t have to participate very much into something’s creation it can be taken with ‘a grain of salt’ as we do not ‘feel’ it’s worth because we took very little part in it.

So this slog through life is a serious investment towards something that we will always cherish, (even though it may not seem so now), and we will always have a huge connection to it from the time, energy, up’s, down’s, love, hate and everything in between that has diligently gone into a creation that is far, far beyond the Pyramids of Giza, the smile of the Mona Lisa or even the building of Empires on this amazing planet we live on. This creation is the bringing together of all that has been felt, understood, built on further and changed each time something has been added to the mix. Each time you feel, each time you go down, each time you come back up, you integrate a little more understanding and wisdom to that creation that is you! You can ‘see’ this each time your going through something by looking back at what has gone before. Ask yourself, ‘what if I put myself back at the beginning where everything went crazy’ and you will see that the answer is ‘no’. Simply because it is a horrible time and you can now see that you have come past that stage and are in fact in a better place. Yes, it probably will be still crazy, and still hurting like mad, but you will have progressed to a point where you can now ‘see’ and understand that.

This is an understanding that I made on MY journey. Seeing, feeling and understanding a process that lies just below the surface and is there for anyone to find and use. Life gets you ready for this ‘awareness’ and when your ready it will knock on your door. You may not hear the knock the first few times or think it was just the wind. But eventually it will make itself known, in it’s own way, for exactly who you are. This is YOUR journey! I’m just a part of that, and it may be only a blink in this part of your life, but hopefully I can make it just a little easier by raising your ‘awareness’ to something that can make ‘living’ so much easier, and bring an acceptance into your life that can create a little smile, a little more happiness and the understanding that those things that seem so little, are actually the most powerful things in our lives, that can and do, change us and those around us. The part of us from before will seem like a dream when you look back and realise…

‘I’m Home…..finally….I’m really Home!’


13 thoughts on “The Journey

  1. Pingback: Guest Blogger/Author Feature... The Magnificent Mark Lanesbury - Me, My Magnificent SelfMe, My Magnificent Self

  2. Apparently that S.O.B. snuck his way right back in. That dirty, rotten…………………I think he got pissed off because I was ignoring him, so he thought he’d cause some more ruckus. I’ve been on wordpress all day trying to get caught up on responding to all the comments and I just got caught up. that’s what happens when you’re away for a few days. Thursday we went on another little overnight excursion. Had a great time. Friday we were unable to do anything we had planned because we drank a little too much the night before. I think that cured me of that for awhile. I haven’t had a 2 day hangover since I was in my younger years, we’ll just say. It’s about making me sick just writing about it.
    Maybe I’ll get lucky and get sucked up into one of these tornadoes and that will be the end of Wild Thang all together. Might as well go out in style, huh? Now, that would be funny! Tornadoes are on the way. I’m just sitting here waiting and when they say to head to the basement, I’m heading right on out to the front yard. LOL doesn’t that sound like a good plan?

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    • So we got a ‘little’ carried away did we? But it WAS fun…at the time. Balance my friend, take a little, give a little or it will ‘take a lot’. Don’t forget, you DID get to do something. Sometimes you can’t even do that. So give thanks, yes I know that is difficult to do with your head, body and everything else all over the place. But you need to teach your body what you want it to do. If you keep pushing it, it will push back. Maybe you could start of with an alarm. Set it for a half hour, then take a break, do some more, then take a break. You might be surprised in how quickly you get used to something. And your body and mind will love you for it. There will be days that will be wobbly, but as you have already said, there has been days that you have gone great. Lets do great for a while!
      Oh, and no tornadoes. One thing to shake your fist at them, but kicking their butt’s? I think not 🙂


  3. Mark, you are amazing and I hope you know just how much you’ve been helping me. You’re amazing just the way you are. You know the song?…………………….If not, it’s on my blog. You’ve taught and continue to teach me something new almost every day and I’ll never be able to thank you enough. Namaste 🙂

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    • Thank you Tammy. You mean the song by Bruno Mars? I love that song…and after many years I finally realised that…’just the way I am’ is all that I need. And thankfully this blog has allowed me to pass on those things that will give a leg up to people on this path. But the real strength lay within those people. I can give them some information, but it is the beauty within you that finally understands and stands in that truth, and it is a sight to see as each person finds that ‘missing’ piece in their lives, as each step is taken to find their path. May you always find that truth my friend. Namaste


      • Oh, you know I will as long as I have you kicking my ass all the way through. LOL I do want to sincerely thank you, being serious here, for all your support, help, patience and for always being here for me. you have no idea how much you’ve helped me. It’s now 8:11 a.m. and I never went to sleep last night and now it’s time to get up for my 10:15 eye doctor appointment and then I have another appointment at 3:00 p.m this afternoon.. Oh well, you know Lucifer will be so kind as to keep me awake and hoppin’. Time to shut this laptop off and drag myself to the shower, as I’ve already hit snooze about 4 times. I must get up. have a great day, my dear friend. Namaste:)


        • Glad to have assisted and it has been my pleasure my friend. Now if we can just get those sleeping habits on a roll, the mind will follow! 🙂 Have a great day, enjoy the lovely spring sunshine, and smile at everybody (they will wonder what you’ve been up to 🙂 ).
          Take care Tammy. Namaste


          • Well, well, well, this day started out on a great note and it didn’t take long for it to go straight to hell. I’m about getting sick of these wacky emotions, up, down, up, down…………………….sigh………………………………………..I’m ready for this day to end so I can get on to tomorrow and tomorrow better be better. I don’t even know what the problem is. No sunshine here. Severe storms and tornadoes rolling in overnight and tomorrow. Can’t wait! I sure hope your day was a GREAT one. You seem to have the hang of this shit. I stand up, I fall down, I stand up, I fall down, and repeat. LORD!
            Take care, my dear friend. Namaste
            Peace out,
            Wild Thang

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          • I think I know you…aren’t you that lady that says, ‘stuff Lucifer, I ain’t got time for his shit! What you doing lady…you let him slip by you and get into your head? 🙂
            Now me personally have found that he hates being ignored. Goes right off and does a troppo! So I ignore him some more. And get back to what I LOVE to do…and that sends him right off….you put love in his face and he whimpers like a kid with his ice cream taken off him 🙂
            So my friend…are you loving you…doing the things that make you feel good inside. I know one thing you love to do, and that’s blogging and helping your friends. Playing some music and just for some emphasis at this point, sticking your head out the window, shaking your fist at the tornadoes that are coming at you, and screaming from the top of your lungs…’I am not an animal, I’m a human being!’. Then burst into tears as God says to you…’I love you exactly as you are. This journey is so that you can find that love within…for yourself. Then you will know me!’. And He does love you with everything He has got.
            So my Wild Child…any tornadoes nearby? 🙂
            Big, big hugs and loving energy coming your way. You’ll laugh as the storms go on by!
            Take care Tammy!

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    • Most definitely a two way street, thank you. Spirit always tells me that any lesson is for both, always. Even if it may seem that the lesson is the same it will give a different understanding to each party. So far I have been enlightened by your giving from the spirit within, of your lovely poetry and ‘banter’ that is both heartfelt, serious and funny, all in their own ways. You have enlightened this person, thank you. May there be much more. Enjoy the journey 🙂 Namaste


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