Compassion!

The lovely Barbara Franken at ‘Me My Magnificent Self’ has asked me to do a guest post on compassion at her website.

To which I firstly say thank you for thinking of me to contribute, and secondly for your site, a wellspring of so much positivity and love with an attitude of finding our own hearts so that we can bless those around us by being the healing and blessing that this discovery brings.

And of course in that discovery is found much compassion as it blossoms from within because we have now understood the meaning of those fears in our lives, and in breaking through them we realise what others are still going through. And in now understanding each side of the equation of fear and compassion, it now opens that love within, for ourselves and in our dealings with those around us.

To this day it still amazes me just how powerful our love and compassion is, for the strength and courage it has taken to step past many painful things in our lives. But the biggest wonder I ever see, is that beautiful recognition I see in the eyes of another as that understanding reaches its final destination…their hearts. The tears begin to flow in an acceptance of exactly who they are as the walls come tumbling down, and a glow like no other begins to shine from within.

To read this guest post on compassion at Barbara’s site, please click here… ‘Compassion!’

And thank you Barbara for allowing me to share my journey on your lovely site, and be a part of that compassion you share with all.

Namaste ❤

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Seeking Love!

In all that we do in our lives, the largest most meaningful act that we do…is to seek love. It is the one thing that drives us, above all else…to find a love that will complete us, give us that happiness we so desperately search for, and a smile that goes on forever!

But each time we think we’ve found it, through those rose coloured glasses (initially) that block out those bits that may seem a little rough around the edges, it slowly resolves to its truth. Those once overlooked parts slowly creep out of the closet along with a dose of reality that make us take a step back to figure out just where we are in this maze of feelings.

And each time it slowly pushes a button, which we ignore for a while but slowly it becomes three feet across and weighs a ton. Try doing that up on your jacket with a one inch hole.

So what does this all mean, this never ending search for someone ‘out there’ who will fulfill this lifelong attempt to find this place that is supposed to be the nadir, the elixir of eternal happiness.

Each time we ‘find’ that special someone we do go through that ‘rose coloured glasses’ period for a reason. It will show us, and hold us, in a very beautiful connection of love. Move the earth, walk on water and a happiness like no other. It is teaching us this love so that we understand that ‘oh so beautiful feeling’, and what is possible in this incredible journey that we are on.

But the button bit also has a purpose. The pain that slowly rises up among this blissful place asks us to look within. Yes, in the early relationships we always point the finger at the other party and know by how we are being treated that this is not love. And these things can test us like no other. A love that holds us there desperately wanting to be loved but constantly being pierced by this pain.

But this has purpose too. We don’t want to leave, but can’t stay either. This, push me pull you, constantly waging a war of attrition trying to find a way through. And as each battle is raged we look for a way out, to repair or finally give up the ghost on something that has so much meaning for us. Yes, we are afraid, petrified of losing the beauty that has so much meaning for us…because within that is the one thing that drives our hearts like no other. But it also has the other thing that tears it apart as well…fear!

And that fear touches a pain from our childhood, a feeling of rejection, a hurt that at that age leaves a very big mark in our lives. And the ones we love with an open heart later in life, also touch these places, and the feeling is so raw and painful. It is this that shows us our journey, to look within and find what that pain means within us.

It will hide deeply because we’ve had a lifetime of burying it, hiding it and avoiding anything that brings that pain to the surface. But it is only by looking within, seeing it in its true light, that we can finally understand what it was that we felt was so painful, and let it go in that understanding.

And then we are free…free to love ourselves, forgive others and move past those bars that kept us viewing life from a distance. It truly does show us within that we ‘do matter’, and very much so. It shows us, in understanding our fear, how to love ourselves.

When I finally found it I was in shock because even for someone with my awareness, I had hidden it, disguised it, and gave this mask to myself and out into the world. And in that understanding I was free, and I don’t mean just free to do whatever I wished….this freedom is like nothing else, because you see, my fear had bound me in everything I did, it was a part of every breathing moment in all that I was. It’s like wearing a helmet 24 hours a day, you slowly get used to it and it becomes second nature, but you can’t see properly, you can’t do things because it confines your natural movement, it weighs you down in all that you do. But when I truly ‘saw’ what it was…I broke into tears and a weight like no other left me, I literally floated for weeks after it.

And because it was gone, I viewed everything from a complete new way…and the incredible part was…I was no longer guided by this fear…I no longer needed to be guided, I could now choose my path, where before it was chosen by the fear.

AND, the part that has totally blown me away…I no longer ‘need’ to find that love ‘out there’. Yes, I would like to share my love with someone, but it is no longer driven by that ‘need’ that had always been there, ever driving me to find that love and happiness for myself within another. I can now see that it was all a projection, I was always sending my fear ‘out there’ and attracting accordingly so that I ‘can’ deal with my fear, understand and release it, to find that freedom and love within.

It is a very strange place, because of that lifetime of always seeking love with that weight on our shoulders, things all take on a new light. I can now truly see so many things that before were blindfolded to me because of my fear. I now have ‘time’, and lots of it. The urge to do something or be something is gone, it no longer matters. I matter, as another beautiful blogger, maryrose, has given me the key many, many times in her beautiful replies. And while ever ‘I matter’ and I learn that loving myself is the key, then that is what I will always attract into my life as a natural course, just as the sun rises and sets every day, displaying a unique and beautiful sight each time in its journey.

It isn’t easy to seek our love, that is why it has so much impact in our lives. But in finding it, it will leave a mark like nothing else ever will…a love that will never be blocked out by life again because we have loved ourselves to find it…and a love like no other…that IS unconditional love.

May you be the love that you seek.

Namaste

Self Love!

It takes a big event in our lives to reach that place within where we finally stop, and sometimes after a very long time of persevering with something…a marriage, relationships with friends or family, a personal situation or even at work, and come to that place where we can see that enough is enough.

It is a very pivotal moment. It draws the fears to the surface but now instead of recoiling and trying to shove it down so it can no longer be seen as we usually do, we finally reach a place that we no longer wish to fight this any more and so we step through it. And it will push buttons that you have never tested before, a strange world where you stand up inside and take those first tentative, wobbly steps to reclaim a sense of self and a realisation that ‘I am worth so much more than this’.

And finally, in that realisation you will achieve something that a lifetime had not. The ability to give within…to give that self love from a truthful place and realise you ARE worth so much more.

So starts the journey to stand in that truth and become what this path seeks, the creation of a love that builds an understanding of love inside, but all starting from a place of fear so that we can see and appreciate what it has taken to find that place within. Both have much purpose, as one cannot be achieved without the other. Hard yes, but if it was easy it would be forgotten in a moment.

That relationship you have persevered with has given you the one thing that you have been seeking all your life…to find that self love and the true happiness that it holds.

Lets say your going through a divorce. And your ex-partner was to find another partner who makes them feel all happy, alive and excited with life…inside they will still be seeking their self love in that need to be with another…based on their fears. That happiness they seek can only be found in that self realisation. If you have found the reason that drove your fears within that relationship, you can now release them but not through anger or hurt, but from a place of understanding as you will now realise ‘why’ you were attracted to that relationship. This will allow you to forgive them (and yourself), now in your self realisation of what you have now understood…as they may not have found the beauty of what you have now become, and still looking to fill the pain and loss in their hearts.

This may take several relationships to ‘see’ that you seem to be hitting the same snags in your relationships, going through the same patterns, but this has purpose so that you ‘can’ see what is holding you back, the fear that will be underneath all your actions and keep you travelling that journey. Until finally it all comes to the surface and it cannot be hidden any longer. This is your moment, your chance to release something that has held you forever in a half truth of life, a place that had happiness but always marred by this thing that would pounce to always let you know that it was still a part of who you are.

And as that uproar settles you are now free to truly look inside and understand that the more you act in that self love, and I mean that with integrity and not a selfish way, your life will now slowly find a happiness, a true happiness where you no longer seek another based on those earlier fears of ‘not being loved or insecurity’ because you have now found that within yourself, the entire purpose of your journey.

Self love is an ability to truly look inside and realise what those fears were, and see how they have driven your life in so many ways and held you in those patterns. To face them IS self love for you will give to yourself something worth more than any other thing in this world. It is a freedom that is unbelievable when you finally step past it and feel that freedom for the first time, and in doing so you realise just how constrained you have been in all of your life. That fear constantly held ‘out of sight, out of mind’, not realising just how conformed you have become to living with it riding on your shoulders.

And as time slowly goes by you become more relaxed, more ‘seeing’ the world from a whole new perspective as you are no longer ‘on guard’ for the fear that was always there as you went about your life. This freedom begins to rebuild what you ‘want’ to be, rather than feeling ‘forced’ to be something by the world around you. A happier place where even if anything comes up in your life, your ability to cope is more at ease, relaxed and understanding….because you have been there, have much wisdom because of that journey and can now help others from now being in that place…and glad to do so.

The anger and pain that usually comes with these events are a part of being able to ‘let go’ from the loss of the security and love that we feel we are losing. And usually because it feels like a total rejection of who and what we are, and a very painful experience that hurts because we feel so unloved…and that is the key…it is a fear that is built on our own self worth. Our own inability for self love. And this is built from childhood and the relationships we have with (usually), our parents and how they were able to express the love that THEY were shown by their parents….and on and on it goes. We are always trying to find what we feel we haven’t got. And we feel we haven’t got that love, and the happiness within that, so we try to find that love in others…but it is in our self love that the answer is hidden.

We have been through a childhood where we have felt either a rejection of love, a hurt or a denial by someone we loved and looked up to. And in that is built our self worth. Are we loveable or not? That self worth takes a battering at this time and we spend the rest of our lives trying to rebuilt that feeling of love and connection with another, to rebuilt that loss we hold forever in our hearts as a consequence of this hurt, and to find that happiness again that has so much meaning within it. But when each time we are with another and they do something that gives us that feeling of rejection again, it re-ignites that fear and we jump straight back behind those emotional walls to keep that pain out.

Holding onto the pain and fear will only hold us in that pattern. We must look within it to find why it makes us feel this way…deeper in your heart to find what you are afraid of, and seek its meaning. In that you disarm it, realise the truth behind your fear…AND LET IT GO.

In total truth the above journeys do have great meaning…those relationships that seem to be a horror at the time ARE done from a place of great love, so that we DO find that self love within. Those instances where the world seems to be crumbling around us DO allow us to eventually come to that place within, and in doing so we heal that hole that always seems to be in our lives, and completes us in such a way that we ‘let go’ and no longer hold onto so many things that in the end, have no meaning or worth and opens us back up to that love and eventually give back out what we have now become.

Because I have been on this journey from a healer’s perspective and actively searched for meaning within my journey, spirit has shown me a great deal of understanding as I step through my fears and see those fears within others. We all must go through them to find that self love within, and gradually we are shown where the love really is…inside us, not ‘out there’. And in that realisation we finally see that all the stress and pain in our lives are all built upon the foundation of our fears that we have held in place since childhood. It is our path…a painful one but with an outcome that will far outshine all that went before.

Some people come to us to teach us a lesson about ourselves. And this is the only way to find our truth, to look deep inside by going through a tremendous upheaval so that we can finally see the truth of what we are within and ‘know’ the love of ourselves. If we didn’t we would always be wandering around pointing the finger at the world for the pain that we are in. If you look around you will see this, but eventually they begin to realise that they are changing, and in that change they find a new heart, a new direction and a peace that goes with that understanding. There is a silver lining to all events, it is made that way even though at times it may not feel like it, and slowly we are guided to find that truth within.

This world has many things for us all…much beauty AND much fear, so that we can become what we all truly seek. It is a balance where we will attract exactly what we need to find that beautiful heart within and finally understand the love that we are.

Where is your heart now?

Look inside, find that self love…your happiness is there…that unconditional love that is who you are…you are so worth it!

Another Wall!

Whenever you put up a wall, for whatever reason, it is to protect your heart! And you will carry it around forever, constantly on guard.

Face it, resolve it…and there is no longer any need to carry around a wall that weighs a ton, emotionally and physically. And it free’s your mind so that instead of constantly being on guard, you now begin to see life differently.

Suddenly you see…a flower, a bird…even a friend from a whole new unworried perspective, and a peace that is so….truly peaceful! Life takes on a whole new meaning…and can finally be lived from a heart that is no longer weighed down and stressed with the pain of that fear. You begin to see the landscape all round, no longer only up to the wall.

Give yourself that courage to ask for help, and share your pain so that others can give you the support to bring that wall down. We all have walls, just because mine is orange and yours is blue makes no difference, a wall is a wall, and its affect is the same, it blocks our view. And our hearts.

If there was a law against emotional blackmail against ourselves we’d all be in jail. Oh, wait a minute, we already are in jail…walls within and all round and not a key in sight because we are afraid to look for it.

Well, it’s time to go past those things that hold us at bay from our truth, and sets us free to heal. Forgive ourselves and start again. Love, and be loved for who we truly are within.

Invite in the engineer’s, go through that emotional blockage that holds you to ransom, and set the charges.

This baby is coming down….

The Heart’s Journey!

Event’s…they all teach so many things about ourselves…bring us to that one truth within ourselves that is unconditional love. Ask yourself…which event in your life did you go through and not learn anger, pain and fear…and on completing this event, eventually feel the forgiveness, compassion and love (of self and others), because you began to realise those harsher energies were keeping you in that negative space. Too painful to bear within so you begin the process of change, with all of its mistakes and false starts, until you finally realise that it is in forgiving yourself that true healing begins.

All eventually lead to this place, all events allow us to create that beautiful understanding within. Painful….yes, but that is the journey or it would have no point. If you go through something that has little effect, you forget it the next day. But if you go through the pain of these things you feel, they are forever a part of who you become.

Especially from those heartfelt places like the loss of a loved one. The compassion and empathy that they create are immense. When you see another go through what has touched you so deeply within, your compassion is awakened and you now give from that place. You now understand, you ‘know’ their pain, so give from that place. If you have never been in that space before, you can give empathy, but it is not from that total heartfelt place from ‘knowing’.

So in going through that loss, that beautiful soul has released its earthbound body and deliberately helped us to understand the love within. They wanted to be a part of that creation and understanding within us. They loved us so much, they gave totally so that we may become that unconditional love, as they now are.

They have only released that body. They are still that beautiful soul that is eternal and infinite. They will always be a part of us, as we are of them.

This journey in all its extremes only leads to one place. Self realisation. We can struggle and fight it but we tire of this struggle, and when anyone is asked ‘what do you want?’, the answer is always the same, ‘just to be happy!’.

We all yearn to be in that place, away from those things that only bring pain and hurt. So an answer to all of our struggles is always sought, to find that ‘thing’ within that can bring us to that place of peace, of happiness and the love that we so wish for. And it is found, when we finally understand that what we project out into this world is only a reflection of ourselves. We project our fears and in doing so we actually create them, so that we can go through them and create that self realisation, understand why we have felt this fear within, and release the wall that has stopped us from loving ourselves.

And in that understanding, the wisdom, the empathy, the compassion and love, are also then mirrored out into the world, a reflection of what we have become.

May your understanding be a true reflection of who you are within.

Namaste

Feeling your way Home!

I know underneath that all of our paths shape us by that one immutable law of attraction, and we bring into our lives the very thing that is needed to teach us its wisdom. We deny it, struggle with it, dance around the edges till it’s time to face it.

And in saying that, you would think this world a terrible place, hardship after hardship grinding us down in ever changing ways. The day in and out of seemingly endless times of tears and pain, and at times becoming unbearable.

But it has purpose. Much purpose for it is the one thing in this world that constantly teaches us about ourselves. A journey, as painful as it is, to reclaim that beauty within.
It does not matter what we do on this planet, they all point back inside us. Whether it is a walk in the park, we feel good, a day earning money, we feel secure, an argument with your partner, we feel angry, a loss of a loved one, we feel grief.

Everything, and I mean everything, is a reflection of our constant feelings within. And we must feel each and every one of them, these feelings, to understand who we are. To truly know ourselves we must feel the anger, hate and jealousies of this world so that we can really appreciate those opposite things of excitement, happiness and love to allow an understanding that completes us.

To be complete is the wisdom to understand something within ourselves, an awareness of our journey that is built on as we go through all of these things. And in that wisdom is the understanding of that duality within, that treating of ourselves as being unworthy or not good enough for an assortment of things in our lives, so we put up walls, wear masks and deny these things of fear within us as they are too painful to confront.

But it is not until we face these things within, and accept them as something we had to go through for that understanding, do we realise that they are all something that was put there so that we could learn from them, see that what we had put in place does in fact allow us to see that non love of self, a belief of not feeling good enough, loveable enough, to be all we can be.

And on facing these negative beliefs, we then recognise they are in fact something that we no longer want to be. We no longer wish to be in a place that creates a place of no love, no belief and a constant reminder of that place. And so the struggle begins, to look inside and understand why we feel this way.

So the universe with all the love in the world realises it’s time. You have put it out there that you no longer wish to be that person, no longer wish to feel that pain any more and become something beyond that. Be something of value and worth within. Become what your heart has been yearning for, for a very long time.

You now attract the very thing that will allow you to face those fears, those negative aspects of self and become what your heart so desires. You face the one thing that will take you to that deep place within so that you can feel that depth of all those negative feelings so that when you emerge from this time, everything changes.

You really understand where you have been, you begin to see things from a new light, and you understand that it has changed you. You appreciate where you have been, so much so that many things that had meaning to you, no longer do. Your direction in life changes, and more so within, for you have now found that love within. You realise in time that you have found self, and it gives you a more peaceful, accepting and patient outlook. The understanding can be quite profound as it will alter so much that you held within.

Your now at the top of your hill. You’ve now come much further than you ever have…and…it is now up to you, your direction, instead of being pulled from pillow to post by the whims of the world around you. Yes, all these things are still happening around you, but they no longer have the pull that they did. They no longer have meaning as you feel you have stepped past this vibration of being dragged into everything.

You have in fact opened and now allow all to go through you, released the strings that held it to you. You no longer resist and attract. It is always the opposite to what we realise. Your journey has gone past it peak and that understanding within now shows you your new path, that path that takes into account that you are that love you have now discovered within, you do love that person inside with all that you are.

You are that unconditional love and you begin to treat yourself that way by accepting yourself for exactly who you are within. All the lumps, bumps and blemishes are irrelevant, as they are exactly who you needed to be on this journey, to show you the way home, to be that beauty within that is unconditional love.

It is a hard journey, but one of the most beautiful and heartfelt creations is its path.

May that awareness show you that self love and give you strength to endure.

Namaste

Two Wolves!

This post was triggered by a post by a lovely lady, Pat Cegan (Pat’s Pondering – evil), and it brought back a part of my journey where spirit showed me something we all partake in. Throughout life we have many instances of doing right and wrong in a maze of our day to day lives. This can be as simple as taking a toy off another child. Mind you, you are also a child, so the uproar from the other child, smack and scolding is seriously in your face, so it is an event you take on board because of its impact on us. And like most of life, our actions have much impact around us, and by their creation (good or bad), we feel their responses in many different ways.

Give a flower to a beautiful lady and the response (usually), is at the least, a smile and some lovely words for the gift. At the opposite end of the scale is abusing someone and in response getting abused back or at the least leaving that person upset or angry. In many of these examples we see every day, are from people who are only acting from what they have been taught or are unsure in how to deal with a situation, and can sometimes overreact or give a response that ‘seems’ to be out of context with whatever has occurred.

I see these things every day and I think that there should, at the least, be a very humanistic side to the teaching of our young in schools to make sure that they at least have something in their learning to show them there is another way, even though at home may not be very comfortable. For in that space at home are the people they love and look up to, want to be so much like them, even though those same people have probably grown up with circumstances that are less than favorable for themselves and can’t help but pass on what they have learned by their parents that they loved and looked up to as well.

But each time I think of these things, I am shown another element by spirit, whereby our lives are full of these things for a reason. We live within the context of these things in our lives to show us an understanding of what holds truth within us, and by experiencing these ‘good and evil’ things we come to know our truth, that release of our fears, letting go of our expectations and finally coming to understand what unconditional love is. And it is there…I have seen and felt it…is the absence of all these things. The understanding of why we hold onto many things in our life through those fears, IS to learn the empathy, the love and beauty that it holds.

We avoid our fears for one very big reason…they scare us. Why would we stick ourselves into a situation that frightens us. For one very good reason. That avoidance builds the fear to such a degree, so that when finally faced, the emotional impact is huge. It is an incredible release of all that we have built up against it, and the impact on us, and understanding of just what held that fear in place, leaves a big effect to such a degree, that we have great empathy for others who we now see in that same circumstance. We learn much by it.

Basically we feel a wrong within us each time we become fearful of doing something, or we only do those things because we know no other way. Whenever we step through that fear, or give to another, we feel that warm, open feeling of love because we have chosen that path. It is the universe just as it was designed. Whatever we put out there comes back in kind so that we do understand where we are at as we learn, realize and understand that journey to the unconditional love that is everywhere. Just waiting for us to understand good and bad, drop our walls of protection and release those fears we build, for we have known no other way.

Be that change. Begin to step towards that warm, open feeling within your life and watch it begin to change your circumstances. Don’t put any expectations on it, just be what you know within IS your truth and coming from that place within. It may seem difficult at first, but next time you become involved in an awkward situation, do not react, breeeathe…and show the other person there is another way, another outcome that is beneficial to all. And from that love within you, you are helping them on their journey, and yourself, starting a new learning experience, and creating within them a new path to that love that we all so dearly wish to reach within.

The following is something that I always have in my healing room. I must apologize as I do not know its origins, but its wisdom is priceless.

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TWO WOLVES

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said,

‘My son, the battle is between two ‘wolves’ inside us all.
One is evil. It is anger, envy, regret, jealousy, sorrow, greed, arrogance, self pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego.
The other one is good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, empathy, benevolence, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.’

The grandson thought about it for a minute then asked his grandfather,

‘Which wolf wins?’

The old Cherokee simply replied,

‘The one you feed’.

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Namaste

Finding the Beauty Within!

My previous post that I reblogged from :

Endless Light and Love!

And click on this link for that post below:

Indigo Children, They are So Switched On to Life

was such an amazing thing to watch and feel, especially where it came from. (See this video first so that you may understand the rest of this post).

It was spoken straight from his heart with not a trace of this world to begin his doubt, fears and the journey back to that unconditional love. We can sense it from him, but this world, and the fears we have created within ourselves, block it in us for fear of being open to it, and being hurt. Just as his mum was eventually brought to tears because of what she felt in the truth that he spoke.

Our minds and ego’s have had years of blocking things to protect ourselves from those painful things in our lives, but the truth is, it is when we do face those fears, we are free. It is by doing that, that we are loving ourselves, and that duality we have had for so, so long, is finally let go, and we begin to truly love and accept ourselves by seeing ourselves for who we truly are, instead of convincing ourselves we are this or that because of those fears.

That truth when we finally see within ourselves, without the walls of fear, anger or pain, is so enlightening. You finally see the beauty all around for you are no longer on guard, no longer afraid of what may come next. You begin to feel all around you in truth, as it comes, instead of what you think may be there through fear, and prepare for the worst which does not allow you to feel everything as it is, because you are so concerned with the next ‘what if?’.

You begin to see and feel in such a way that you begin to smile at all those little things that you just didn’t have time for before, and now can be seen for what they really are, part of the beauty of life. You are no longer set in your ways to be ready for anything, you just appreciate what happens as it does for you are now beginning to realise that this journey, is a journey, and not a work routine.

You begin to live by ‘looking out the window’ of your holiday transport and relax and enjoy the views and the experiences of what is a beautiful, natural landscape that can be truly experienced for the wonder that they are.

I will make one other small comment here. For those that know, it has already been seen, but for others on their journey it is in the recognition of the power, and I’m not talking about worldly power where you have control in some way over another, it is the power that is given ‘unconditionally’ from within the child. When you recognise, without fear, where it has come from, then you have begun to answer your truth within and realise the potential of giving from your heart and understanding the journey of unconditional love. The power that the child has is simply the fact that he does not yet condemn himself for anything, view himself wrong in any way or have judgement of another. All is given from a place within that only knows that unconditional love.

You too can be that child within. May your journey and awareness, from your courage to look within and release those walls that you have built, blossom from the love that you give yourself to remove those fears. For in that knowledge and acceptance you then find that you are very perfect exactly as you are, and the understanding of unconditional love begins.

Namaste

A Path!

So far, after a great deal of time of my life, I am seeing the underneath fabric of all that connects us, and really understanding some depth into the journey and its purpose. Not all, obviously, but with much better perspective of something that I thought I knew from earlier in my life (for where I was at), but really did not. I suppose it is like using Tarot cards, they look like cards with pictures and writing on them, but after a while they begin to tell a story.

This journey we are on always follows the theme of the heart. One of struggling with a myriad of emotions that always come back to that one truth of unconditional love. But that understanding can only come after many, many paths that test us in so many ways. We at times wish it would all end, but in hindsight, begin to see the wisdom of the journey and how it has slowly changed us in such a way that we begin to see the beauty in our understanding of just what is really going on underneath it all.

When I first began to ‘see’, I thought I had cracked the secret of the universe and went out to heal the world, which (in hindsight) was exactly what I needed to do as I was drawing people to me that needed healing from that perspective. But as I understand more and as I have ‘opened’ more, I realise that in reality, I need to do less. Then I only attract to me from that perspective.

This journey we are on is set up so perfectly to attract exactly what we need within our lives to such a degree that it astounds me with the beauty of it. I can be helping someone, and as we go through the particular emotional turmoil they are experiencing, I begin to see exactly why they go through this experience, from whatever fear they are experiencing, to attracting exactly what is required for them to go through and release that fear allowing them to experience, understand, release the emotions and gain the wisdom from this path.

And all of this wisdom begins to show the truth within, the journey of understanding and the knowledge that we are all here to gain the beauty of unconditional love. The releasing of all of our fears is the main agenda for it blocks our ability to ‘see’. We put up our physical and emotional walls to protect ourselves from those fears but in so doing we are so focused on creating a life to avoid those fears that it closes the ability to ‘see’.

These emotional walls are very important as they cause us to struggle within with so many onslaughts of ‘what if ‘ and ‘should I or shouldn’t I’, that becomes a hard taskmaster but in truth creates a master within. Like a chess game. In the beginning you see lots of pieces that do many individual things and your focus is in close on each piece for what they do, but after a while you can begin to see that these same pieces can in fact be looked at from further back and moved in context with the other pieces. Your understanding of the strategy of the game becomes more complex but easier because of that understanding. You gain wisdom by experiencing the game and understanding it’s complexities.

So is life. As you begin to understand the way that you react to certain circumstances and understand that those fears are in fact ruling your life and complicating you beyond measure, and you reach a point within that says ‘enough’, you begin to step out of a strategy that you have had in place forever to cope with this fear, and begin to try another strategy, and another, until you realise that none of them work. There is only one way…and that is to go through that fear, face it head on, and then and only then do you understand why you have had that coping strategy in place, to protect you from it because you have been afraid to face it. But it was never going anywhere, it was just sitting there until you do face it.

So you begin to look deeper to understand why this has been in place for so long. You poke and prod in frustration until one day you see or hear something that you relate to, and suddenly you understand what it is that you have been afraid of. At this point you usually burst into tears from the release of understanding. The final checkmate that finishes such a long and drawn out process that the relief is indescribable. It’s done. Leaving you very drained, tired but out from under a burden that you have laboured under forever. There will be a lot of time needed to get over this as it is a hugely emotional drain, and unlike a physical drain, this needs much more recovery time.

After this journey is complete you begin to see this same path that others are taking and you have much empathy to those others because of what you have experienced. You begin to give to others from that compassion within that you have gained from your experience. And this opens you from within, as your journey has now shown you your truth. You are no longer hiding, evading or even lying to yourself because of that fear. You are no longer bound by the walls that you had in place for protection. You begin to give from your truth and in doing that the universe responds in kind, to begin another journey, but with this one it is from the opposite side of the coin. This time you start to understand the journey and give from that place of understanding.

As time goes on and you ‘see’ so much more, you begin to master your wisdom and realise that all that went before has purpose. It also enables you to ‘step back’ further and begin to really understand just what unconditional love means. You are no longer judgemental as you can now see we all have our own individual fears and are driven by those fears. And what a fear means to one person may not affect another at all. This in itself releases you for the simple reason that those judgements are based on fear. You no longer have yours as you have now released it, and you are now coming from your truth within, which is totally free from any judgement and no longer a load to carry around.

You now understand the complexities of what a fear can do. It has always been the reason from doing or not doing so many things. It integrates itself into your life, not just a side of your life but an integration of just who you are. That is why it is such a release when it is faced and released. It will feel like the world has been lifted off your shoulders. And it is no longer at the steering wheel of your life. You now give control back to yourself, your true self that has been behind the wall.

So now as each piece of understanding is gained you begin to ‘see’ further and further into your truth, of just what you are and the meaning that we have so been looking for all our lives. To realise that this whole journey has been only about one thing, even though there is a billion ways to get there, and that is to understand the path of self love, to find that truth within, remove that duality and finally become one with all that is, the beauty and perfection that is unconditional love.

With love and light,

Mark

Truth from an unexpected place!

I did it again. Pre-empting a night of ho-hum with my 83 year old mum out celebrating an early Christmas dinner with all her tennis chums, I assumed a night of conversation that would consist of the latest thrashing such and such gave to someone else, and how they got them in the final set would be the highlight of the night. Little did I know that the foreign gentleman across the table from me was going to fire a rocket across my bow and make me sit up and really take note of a truth from an unexpected quarter.

A general polite conversation had begun about the use of statin’s as a cholesterol lowering drug and the uproar that had hit Australian television a couple of weeks ago after a very respectable scientific show called Catalyst (Part 1: Heart of the matter, Dietary Villian’s, Part 2: Heart of the matter, Cholesterol Drug War), had done some serious research to show that the cholesterol came after heart disease, not before it. And the research that had determined that cholesterol was the culprit, was seriously flawed. As you could imagine that caused a sensation that is still reverberating around the country now. (By the way, I am not suggesting throwing your statin’s out the door, speak with your Doctor first, then do what I did and flushed the con job that they are down the toilet).

Anyway, this, believe it or not, wasn’t what threw me. The gentleman with the smile and twinkle in his eye quietly let the hubbub die down and he proceeded to tell us of his heart condition that he was going through at that moment. They had inserted a stent to try to repair the vein to the heart and reduce the strain on the heart wall muscle that, he had been told, the statin’s appear to have weakened. That went well, but his heart condition still left him quite weak. They also said that in his weakened condition they would not be able to operate again because he would not survive it. And he was still smiling.

A lady next to me said it must have been a terrible ordeal, to which he thought about for a moment and then said ‘Yes, it was. But while I was hovering above the surgeon watching him operate on me, it really didn’t matter, I couldn’t feel anything’. You could have dropped a pin, in the middle of a restaurant seating 150 people, and heard it roll over the floor. We all sat there stunned, myself included, by this admission from someone from the old school who usually kept those things to themselves. He went on to say it was peaceful and he could see exactly what they were wearing, what they were saying to each other and what everything looked like in the room. Even how they were doing the operation on him.

To say the least, he had all our attention. And finally spirit gave me a nudge (I was still sitting there in a daze), and gently got me to ask him, ‘after being a part of that, how do you feel towards life now?’. To which he replied, ‘everything has changed, things that were important, no longer are. Other things that didn’t seem to matter, now do. Life has changed’. (And where have I heard that before!). And as we all sat there nodding our heads and seeing the truth in his words, we all realised our lives were very artificial. Very keep up with the Jones’s. And full of stress for all the wrong reasons.

As I write this I even think that where I am coming from can still use a lot more changes. Changes in what I feel is important to me, and those things that I really don’t need. My attitude to a lot of things can still do with a lot of tweaking for the simple reason I still allow many things to come into them that in reality have no meaning. Yes, I need to learn those things but more to the point is in having the attitude of giving from a place that has meaning and truth. And I realise that I still have things that need to be expressed and let go to heal so that I can actually live the truth that I am, not the version that is giving, but with a layer of fear wrapped around my heart for protection so that my attitude is restricted by this layer getting in the way of everything.

So at the end of the evening, we could see that this gentleman was becoming quite tired, and even I was beginning to feel he was actually in quite a bit of pain, so with a little nod of his head to his wife they bid their good nights to one and all and made their way home.

I went out with the expectation of a dull evening, and spirit being spirit decided to show me what life was really all about. In the most unexpected place, from the most ordinary circumstances, life is alive and well. And from a place that seemed lifeless and coming to an end. He had a smile and a twinkle in his eye, and I know why. I now even feel that within myself because he was able to express his truth to us all. Life is what we make it. So what do you really want out of life? What really is important? This life is really but a brief sojourn, and in reality it is to those we love, ourselves included, that we should give from a place of truth and feel from our heart within. Too soon time has come and gone before we realise that maybe we should have done this or that. Now is the only time…forgive (for you may not be able to later), let go (for pain is the only thing you hold), hug (for it cares from within), say ‘I love you’ (for most of all, it means everything). Namaste