Monthly Archives: October 2014

Coming Out Party!

No, I’m not Gay. Nor am I 40,000 other labels that I could wrap around my name, put up in lights or even tack onto my door. I am that I am. A discovery we all make at different times in our lives as we wade through a multitude of things to ‘see’ if this fits or that resonates.

But it is in finally realising that what we are…is enough. After struggling, trying to find something ‘out there’ for many, many years, finding what at first seems to be exactly what we were after, only to realise that it still didn’t reach that fulfilment, that something that we constantly try to find in our journey.

I am that I am because I have now accepted that knowledge that what we had been looking for has resided inside this body always. But I had just been too noisy, trying to find something that would not be found till I let it go. Released this journey outside and listened within, instead of looking, I saw, instead of constantly worrying of my past or future, I became silent. And in that silence I began to hear something.

A voice I at first didn’t recognise. No, not a sound but a ‘knowing’ that had at different times come into my life and was fobbed off as ‘a fluke’ or ‘freaky event’. But this in fact was my centre, my spirit, my guide and myself within. It has been helping and assisting my journey with all of the love and beauty that it could. And suddenly I realised I needed to feel and experience all that I did so that when this moment arose for my understanding, it would be gratefully accepted and appreciated so much more BECAUSE of what my path had entailed.

That understanding is a watergate. A time to really understand the first part of my journey and now encompass what I have now become because of that. The first part must be experienced, felt and understood or the duality cannot be released. It is in that acceptance of what I really am within that removes the crutches, the helping hand of life’s many experiences so that I can stand within my truth and now give from that acceptance of the discovery within and be at one with myself.

It is an incredible experience to suddenly realise there is a completely new world within our own but beautifully interwoven so that it only becomes apparent when it is needed for our journey. And even ‘knows’ when we are ready to step into it fully so that we are not scared or reject it unintentionally thinking we are losing our minds. For it will only be accepted by those who are ready. The world will keep us distracted with life until that point is reached. It may dance at the fringes so that an awareness is gradually accepted but only enough so that eventually it becomes too apparent to be ignored any more.

So as I begin this next stage of my learning, and feel so much more within it, the urge to share from where I am at, is a natural by product of giving from a place that has become more open, more loving and more unconditional as I grow into who I have now become.

There are no words to fully describe this, ‘beauty, acceptance, embracing, seeing, knowing’ and a million other words to embody something that has no words. It IS of another world but one that has always been a part of us, and which with great love, has given us something that will help create the most beautiful and heartfelt soul on its infinite journey.

And in sharing such an incredible journey with the many blogger’s of THIS world, I felt it was time to embody the voice, visualize the writing and create this journey from a more balanced and open perspective. (Actually scottishmomus started this with her coming out party, and I’ve been threatening to do it ever since 🙂 )

So with respect to the many who were happy with that isolation, I will now integrate that balance with my mug shot below. May it not scare children or animals :), appease those with sight, and give love and understanding to those that only see my writings origins from the healing within my heart. Namaste

    Me ☟
Me

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Happy blogiversary!

I don’t know what happened but my anniversary has snuck by me (August 27, 2013). I’ve been wandering around here annoying people, sticking my nose in hither and yon for over twelve months now. How time flies 🙂

Well, all I can say is…it has been a pleasure to reach this point and become a part of a magical place that has so much empathy, love and sharing. I’ve come across so much beauty within stories, poems and lives, and within those I have been given the privilege of touching the hearts of those who are a part of this creation, who have expressed that love from within those words from all walks of life. This world cannot be but for the love it is built on, so truthfully there is much love to go around.

Thank you for allowing me into your world and be a part of something that has a special meaning because you dare to hold your heart open for all to see, and in that I feel very privileged. Namaste

May there be more magic, beauty and joy to show that beauty within. I look forward to more sharing, and being touched by the creation of what you hold dearly in your heart.

Mark

The Heart’s Journey!

Event’s…they all teach so many things about ourselves…bring us to that one truth within ourselves that is unconditional love. Ask yourself…which event in your life did you go through and not learn anger, pain and fear…and on completing this event, eventually feel the forgiveness, compassion and love (of self and others), because you began to realise those harsher energies were keeping you in that negative space. Too painful to bear within so you begin the process of change, with all of its mistakes and false starts, until you finally realise that it is in forgiving yourself that true healing begins.

All eventually lead to this place, all events allow us to create that beautiful understanding within. Painful….yes, but that is the journey or it would have no point. If you go through something that has little effect, you forget it the next day. But if you go through the pain of these things you feel, they are forever a part of who you become.

Especially from those heartfelt places like the loss of a loved one. The compassion and empathy that they create are immense. When you see another go through what has touched you so deeply within, your compassion is awakened and you now give from that place. You now understand, you ‘know’ their pain, so give from that place. If you have never been in that space before, you can give empathy, but it is not from that total heartfelt place from ‘knowing’.

So in going through that loss, that beautiful soul has released its earthbound body and deliberately helped us to understand the love within. They wanted to be a part of that creation and understanding within us. They loved us so much, they gave totally so that we may become that unconditional love, as they now are.

They have only released that body. They are still that beautiful soul that is eternal and infinite. They will always be a part of us, as we are of them.

This journey in all its extremes only leads to one place. Self realisation. We can struggle and fight it but we tire of this struggle, and when anyone is asked ‘what do you want?’, the answer is always the same, ‘just to be happy!’.

We all yearn to be in that place, away from those things that only bring pain and hurt. So an answer to all of our struggles is always sought, to find that ‘thing’ within that can bring us to that place of peace, of happiness and the love that we so wish for. And it is found, when we finally understand that what we project out into this world is only a reflection of ourselves. We project our fears and in doing so we actually create them, so that we can go through them and create that self realisation, understand why we have felt this fear within, and release the wall that has stopped us from loving ourselves.

And in that understanding, the wisdom, the empathy, the compassion and love, are also then mirrored out into the world, a reflection of what we have become.

May your understanding be a true reflection of who you are within.

Namaste

Feeling your way Home!

I know underneath that all of our paths shape us by that one immutable law of attraction, and we bring into our lives the very thing that is needed to teach us its wisdom. We deny it, struggle with it, dance around the edges till it’s time to face it.

And in saying that, you would think this world a terrible place, hardship after hardship grinding us down in ever changing ways. The day in and out of seemingly endless times of tears and pain, and at times becoming unbearable.

But it has purpose. Much purpose for it is the one thing in this world that constantly teaches us about ourselves. A journey, as painful as it is, to reclaim that beauty within.
It does not matter what we do on this planet, they all point back inside us. Whether it is a walk in the park, we feel good, a day earning money, we feel secure, an argument with your partner, we feel angry, a loss of a loved one, we feel grief.

Everything, and I mean everything, is a reflection of our constant feelings within. And we must feel each and every one of them, these feelings, to understand who we are. To truly know ourselves we must feel the anger, hate and jealousies of this world so that we can really appreciate those opposite things of excitement, happiness and love to allow an understanding that completes us.

To be complete is the wisdom to understand something within ourselves, an awareness of our journey that is built on as we go through all of these things. And in that wisdom is the understanding of that duality within, that treating of ourselves as being unworthy or not good enough for an assortment of things in our lives, so we put up walls, wear masks and deny these things of fear within us as they are too painful to confront.

But it is not until we face these things within, and accept them as something we had to go through for that understanding, do we realise that they are all something that was put there so that we could learn from them, see that what we had put in place does in fact allow us to see that non love of self, a belief of not feeling good enough, loveable enough, to be all we can be.

And on facing these negative beliefs, we then recognise they are in fact something that we no longer want to be. We no longer wish to be in a place that creates a place of no love, no belief and a constant reminder of that place. And so the struggle begins, to look inside and understand why we feel this way.

So the universe with all the love in the world realises it’s time. You have put it out there that you no longer wish to be that person, no longer wish to feel that pain any more and become something beyond that. Be something of value and worth within. Become what your heart has been yearning for, for a very long time.

You now attract the very thing that will allow you to face those fears, those negative aspects of self and become what your heart so desires. You face the one thing that will take you to that deep place within so that you can feel that depth of all those negative feelings so that when you emerge from this time, everything changes.

You really understand where you have been, you begin to see things from a new light, and you understand that it has changed you. You appreciate where you have been, so much so that many things that had meaning to you, no longer do. Your direction in life changes, and more so within, for you have now found that love within. You realise in time that you have found self, and it gives you a more peaceful, accepting and patient outlook. The understanding can be quite profound as it will alter so much that you held within.

Your now at the top of your hill. You’ve now come much further than you ever have…and…it is now up to you, your direction, instead of being pulled from pillow to post by the whims of the world around you. Yes, all these things are still happening around you, but they no longer have the pull that they did. They no longer have meaning as you feel you have stepped past this vibration of being dragged into everything.

You have in fact opened and now allow all to go through you, released the strings that held it to you. You no longer resist and attract. It is always the opposite to what we realise. Your journey has gone past it peak and that understanding within now shows you your new path, that path that takes into account that you are that love you have now discovered within, you do love that person inside with all that you are.

You are that unconditional love and you begin to treat yourself that way by accepting yourself for exactly who you are within. All the lumps, bumps and blemishes are irrelevant, as they are exactly who you needed to be on this journey, to show you the way home, to be that beauty within that is unconditional love.

It is a hard journey, but one of the most beautiful and heartfelt creations is its path.

May that awareness show you that self love and give you strength to endure.

Namaste