Namaste Princess!

After all that was shown to me in ‘The Love’, spirit decided that I needed to see something a bit further along this journey of unconditional love so that I may realise it’s significance over time in how it has affected me, my way of life and just how I project that out into the world.

It has been nearly two years after my relationship with the most beautiful women in the world has ended, even though we are still good friends. And in that time I have always given to that friendship, knowing that given time we would both eventually meet others and devote more time and energy into those relationships, to progress further on our journey of understanding of who we truly are.

So last night I visited my princess to give her a present for her birthday. And was met by this incredibly beautiful and regal queen. Recently, over a period of a couple of months, I felt a change within her in a way that was showing, after a few years of going through some seriously traumatic events, that that time of the princess was now over. The beauty of what those events had created was now beginning to emerge like the chrysalis of a butterfly. And it was a lovely thing to see.

We talked for some time and I could feel the energy coming from a totally different place. Her confidence in understanding what she had now become was amazing. She had found that lovely lady within, and was beginning to show that love to herself, after all that had gone before. Give to herself in a way that showed she had come through that trial by fire that is needed to create that rebirth within, and then come from that place to give truly from the heart.

Her heart was in her eyes, the happiness in her actions. She was blossoming in so many ways after her time of understanding, with those things that she had gone through. I was so happy for her after seeing the pain and the struggle that her life had put before her so that she could find that queen within. That searching and finding of that wisdom and belief in herself to become that hope for her future and what she wanted to become.

I’ll never forget that journey, as it was this princess that showed me the beauty of unconditional love. And I now realised, that was why spirit needed me to still be a part of this relationship, so that I could see that this was a gradual process like any other. We grow in faith in ourselves, we grow to understand anything we study, we grow in understanding in the raising of our children, we grow in our love for another, but the biggest and most incredible growth, is in loving ourselves. These things test us in so many ways, but in that final testing we slowly become that beautiful thing within that is unconditional love.

So after all that has been said and done, my love for this beautiful lady and all that she has taught me, is undiminished. My own heart journey has reached a new place of understanding and letting go. The woman I have loved and remained friends with has grown in her own voyage of discovery. Time for me to let the princess of yesterday blossom as queen of her own heart. Sometimes letting go is the only way to keep that which we love and those we have known. A new stage of the voyage begins. Friendship and love remain.

Love rejoices in another’s happiness. Always.

Namaste

This song is so poignant to my journey, it’s synchronicity in how I found it, was as always perfection from the universe.

15 thoughts on “Namaste Princess!

    1. Mark Lanesbury Post author

      Thank you Dina, it was an experience I will never forget. To be able to ‘touch’ another on that level gave me much confidence in what we are all becoming, that unconditional love within ourselves. That constant search for that ‘happiness’ that we all seek in our lives down here.
      Thank you for sharing Dina, may your journey ‘touch’ that place within also 🙂

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  1. tlohuis

    That is a very beautiful song and I really enjoyed it. I’d never heard it before. Now, you can go right on back over to my page and actually listen to the song before clicking on the like button. You are so funny. I didn’t even have the damn song up yet, because I have my way of doing it, and you had already liked it.
    Peace out,
    Wild Thang 🙂

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    1. Mark Lanesbury Post author

      Yes it was a beautiful song, it played and played on the radio as I was going through this time. Universe had something for me to hear 🙂 And yes, you are right, I clicked the like on your post so fast you hadn’t had time to put the song up. Sorry about that, next time I will restrain myself. And I always ‘like’ your stuff anyway 🙂

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  2. MamaMickTerry

    Hi Mark,
    I’m so glad our paths crossed–your blog touched me immediately and reading about your Namaste Princess struck me in that it could have been me just a few years (er, months) ago! I’ve only been in the blog space for about a month and have so much to learn from writers like you. I’m studying websites this evening and am eager to devour more of your words. I’m glad my subject interested you–I’m a bit of a fanatic in that football space. Thanks for finding me!
    Michelle

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    1. Mark Lanesbury Post author

      Sorry for the delay, just got back from sister’s birthday waaaay cross country. Great break though! 🙂 I’m glad we crossed paths as well. I’ve found that in my years (ok, I’ve only been on here a few months too), I have found such a community of writers, everything from A to Z so I’m sure that there will be many that will interest you. Also glad that you found my writing of interest in a way that you connected with. I think it is such a subject that you can get bits, lots or just confirmation in where you’ve been through your life. Hope you enjoy the reading. And yes, my 49’ers are 6 – 2 so going ok so far, just had a wobble in the first couple of games. As long as it doesn’t come back to haunt them 🙂 Thank you again for your words, and I loved your writing on your life/love of the poor Chiefs. Like all football teams, they will have their days but then that makes it all the sweeter when they do fire up 🙂 Take care, Mark

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  3. MamaMickTerry

    Beautiful! Being a writer, you would think I could find more magical words to describe how I felt after reading this and all I can think to say is “beautitful.” I can’t wait to read more!

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    1. Mark Lanesbury Post author

      Thank you Michelle. I just found your site and was amazed at your style of writing. It is very easy but expressive in the one go. And of course the subject matter interested me first. Now don’t judge me, but I have to admit, living in Australia, that I bumped into my first gridiron game watching Joe Montana with the 49’ers many years ago. I was lost. Another tragic story was unfolding that I haven’t really been able to let go. But these days, after my journey, I spend much more time writing, as it was from within, and needed to be expressed for myself as well as any that would find it comforting for themselves. Thank you for your kind words and I do look forward to reading more of that lovely writing. Namaste

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  4. Sue Dreamwalker

    What a beautiful written story of your journey,
    Letting Go is one of the hardest things we do, and yet when one understand nothing and no one is ever lost to us… because we can hold nothing and own nothing, for we are one…
    But each person we meet along our paths are indeed a gift..
    Long may you treasure your finding of each other and the shared gifts that togetherness brought

    Blessings ~Sue
    And many thanks for dropping by Dreamwalker’s Sanctuary

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    1. Mark Lanesbury Post author

      Thank you Sue. This relationship was a dambuster, so to speak, as it showed me so much in such a short space of time. Little pieces opened into a vista of understanding and I will always be eternally gratefull to this lovely lady who was just being herself to allow me to find myself. (If you would like further detail on how I did this it is on my menu above called ‘The Love’). As you are aware, when we begin to see ourselves within and understand our truth, we begin to smile with excitement because we have found that one thing that had always seemed to be missing. Us. To see those truths in another we must first look into our own hearts and begin the journey of truly loving ourselves, and in doing so we walk through our fears and pain that block our understanding. Once these walls are gone we can see forever, and in doing so, help others on their journey. Thank you for the gift of your lovely words and the wisdom of your blog. I am hoping to learn much more within its pages. Namaste

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    1. Mark Lanesbury Post author

      Thank you Skye. It was a beautiful experience and I feel very blessed to have spent that with someone who gave from an amazing place within. The truth be known, I feel blessed to have known her, and understand the love that she showed me. A lovely journey, and one that I will always cherish as it opened my heart from within, giving me so much understanding that I now share with others. Thank you for your kind words. Namaste

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  5. scottishmomus

    It’s lovely Mark that you were able to remain friends with this woman and see the transformation that occurred over a period of time. And, yes love does rejoice in another’s happiness. As I’m sure she would rejoice for you to find new happiness.x

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    1. Mark Lanesbury Post author

      Thank you scottishmomus. As you say, it was a lovely experience to see and feel. Usually people are angry and/or frightened because of this part of the journey. Mainly because of the pain and hurt that is generated through the loss of the love from a partner, and the anger that is created is used to shield that hurt. And these parts are needed to go through our own fears so that we may understand and heal them. I feel very blessed to have been able to go through it and understand all that it meant, and come to that realisation that there was no loss from the relationship but a true understanding of what we went through, and what we became, because of it. It was something I will never forget and will bring into any relationship in the future. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Namaste x

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